Today isn’t a good day, in fact it’s a bit harder than yesterday. I had more spotting this morning which has officially put me on bed rest for 72 hours without color…best case scenario I’ll be off on Saturday morning. Saturday happens to be the day that we were supposed to photograph a wedding that I have been looking forward to for months. I will not be photographing the wedding, but thankfully Dustin will be with a few of our colleagues that have stepped up to help out. I am so grateful for their kindness on such short notice. I will be sad to miss it, but our family is and always will be our #1 priority.
Today didn’t start well with the spotting, but it’s ending well. Amelia was a dream today, in fact I think we went all day with only one tantrum…the one that started the day. It’s impossible to tell a 2 year old that you can’t pick her up, it’s impossible for her to understand and it’s impossible as a mother who wants to smother her daughter with love to tell her no. She wasn’t happy this morning about not being picked up and loved on, but we moved past it. We’re simply explaining to Amelia that mommy is sick and cannot pick her up…let’s hope tomorrow morning is better.
This morning while I was resting on the sofa Amelia went into her room and got her little toy pot and her spatula from her play kitchen. She came back into the family room and I asked her what she was making she said “I’m making mommy feel better.” Kids know how to say exactly the right thing at the right time. She’s been snuggling with me all day and loving on me, telling me over and over that she loves me. She just walked up to me a moment ago and said “kisses” which means I need to give you a kiss.
I am blessed every day, but today I am more so.
